Windows are meant to let in fresh air, let folks inside see what’s going on outside. Doors are meant to be passed through.

I have often mistaken windows for doors. I’ve thought God let me see something – hey, a door!  I should walk through.  When I’ve attempted to walk through, it’s been entirely through my own strength, wearying, and a letdown.  Things that I wasn’t ready for I tried to take on, resulting in burnout and blaming God for my mistake of jumping the gun.

I have often mistaken doors for windows.  Passed up opportunities because I didn’t believe it was meant for me, or it was difficult, or it was impossible for that pathway to be a place to go.

I’m trying to let God show me the difference between a open window and a open door, but the truth is I’ll probably keep mistaking one for the other.  Peace and grace abound, because no matter where I go, as I follow His leading nothing is wasted or in vain.

Emotional Scars Linger for Childhood Cancer Survivors

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Often, in prayer or worship, I see the streets of Los Angeles being washed clean by a river flowing down, the currents of water sweeping away all the trash and dust, leaving a wake of plant life blooming.  Folks standing in their front yards laugh as the water swirls ankle-deep around their feet, washing their feet clean.

And every morning as I walk to work, stepping over puddles, trash, and gapped sidewalk, I can’t help but think that day cannot come soon enough.

Just a reminder that this video is just as funny as it was in high school:

Side note: what online video sites existed in high school?  Youtube came about in 2005.

Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.

Hebrews 4:16

…and yet how often I approach the throne with downcast eyes and a downtrodden soul, hoping to be spared from accusations of my failures.  I approach in a posture of understanding the gospel without grace.